Conversation.

Every now and then, the biggest dilemmas of our life get reduced to just one question, do you have faith?
The strange thing of this moments is that when they come most people will try to answer that they do have faith, and then plead to god for some help.
In my case, since I don't believe in any kind of god, I must think quite a lot before answering that kind of questions.
-Do I have Faith?
-No
-Why?
-you never specified faith in what, therefore when nothing is specified, the answer is no.
-faith in god?
-no
-faith in people?
-used to have faith that people were constantly evolving, improving, and would learn from their mistakes, but that is lost, at least for now.
-faith in yourself?
-No. I do know I'm really good at some things, but do not have faith in me.
-Faith in a master plan?
-No
-Do you have any kind of faith? Any kind would do.
-once again I must answer no.
-What do you think will happen with humanity then, if you have no faith at all?
-Sad to say, I believe that we are fucked. All of humanity will be thrown into the claws of oblivion one of this days, and there will be no record to indicate we ever existed.
-Isn't your line of thought a little bit over pessimistic?
-I'm not pessimistic, I'm realistic. We kill each other, we steal from each other, we cheat, we lie, and I could continue enumerating.
-But what about love, compassion, and all the good people around the world?
-Let me ask you something, how many innocents died in "Holy" wars? how many innocents died when one country invaded another one to fight for their freedom, but  all they cared about was their natural resources? Do the maths, one saved do not compensate for hundreds. In the greater picture, we are fucked.
-...
-yes.
-... I guess that would be all then
-as you wish.
-I feel like killing my self now.
-Please don't, you are part of me.
-Aw, you care for me...
-Actually no, but you are a voice inside my head, and there is a great chance that by killing yourself you would actually hurt me.
-ah, touche mon ami, or should I say, my host?

have a good night.